Its christmas mom, DO YA WANT ME TO GET ANGRY????????

Yellow there.

Yes as you probably have noticed I have decided to substitute my usual HELLO with a YELLOW.

HOW DO YOU LIKE ME NOW SHAKESPEARE?

Well it was an average day, nothing but the usual typical life of the rare and infinite life of your average wannabe-actress. (Yes I said infinite as wannabe-actresses will live for the rest of the future generations...I don't really make sense, do I?)

Im just basically staring off into the distance thinking of things write about. I tend to do that alot and I hate when the "distance" your staring at is some boy and he totally thinks you have a thing for him. O_o

OH OH OH, BRAINSTORM!!!

... or is is BRAIN-BLAST?

yah I don't really know

Christmas Presents!

...

Christmas presents?

Well I was just talking to my dear friend Izzy or Bellz..or Izabela and she isn't quite SATISFIED with her future christmas presents.

You see bellz here, wants an ipod

And you see Bellz's Momma says she already has a mp3 player on her phone but its broken!

So whats poor bellz gonna do? :'(

SO, what do you want for christmas?

AND, do you truly think your gonna get it?

Anyway nat (natalie) just came by and picked up the science textbook since AP or SP only gets the book and she's Honors. Thank god she knows MOI :P hehe.

The novel is going pretty well, I got my plot down-packed and everything.

I also feel really bad about not going to the winter concert today to support my friends in band but I am NOT going there and basically being jealous of everyone.

DOUNIA WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?

well, thank you for asking and let me tell you WHY I am not going.

See, being the wannabe-actress that I am, I always do a monologue and skit with natalie. Winter AND spring concert. Last year spring was cancelled so we did it only in winter but it was still SOMETHING. Anyway, this year after I worked my friggin butt off memorizing my monologue and writing a play for me and natalie and practicing it until my BRAIN hurts...

DOUNIA! YOU TRULY HAVE A BRAIN????

Yah, um I kind of do..and ANYWAY...

So, i do all this work and work my butttt off, then the drama teacher goes

"Why dounia! Didn't I tell you? This year Im doing only ballroom dancers"

O_o sure, I stared blankly at her for a while but then she slowly backed away. I sensed I was kind of freaking her out...And I look sad and all but she doesn't give TWO PENNYS and acts totally casual.

So yah, My name is Dounia and that was my story.

Short post but took me forever with all the distractions :D

well, cya later dudes and duddetes

PEACE OUT DAWGS (Yah thats my thing now)

oh, And why doesn't anyone leave any comments? Where are you 20 followers? Comment! Just to let me know your here, that your not DEAD. Because what if YOU REALLY ARE DEAD? AT least comment with the word "jimmy neutron"

Big news

Oh gawsh.

Guess what?

Im thinking of publishing....my book.

Well, you know how I never seem to finish books that I tend to start?

Well this time its serious. O_o ok, maybe not THAT serious.

I called a self publishing jinglemabop and they are prepared to give me a HUGE discount because of how old I am which is fascinating. They probably don't think I can pull it off. I have some cash saved up and its about 250 bucks for the basic package. So before I get excited or anything, what do you think? Here is a chapter..and ill throw a half in.

They said they will give me up to 2 years to finish it! Which is more then enough time. Anyway, here it is.

What was I possibly thinking? That I could pull off being sick? No no no no,I resented the idea of sticking my two fingers down my throat. That I would not have to go to school today, simply because I did not feel like it? I finally managed to get up and walked all the way to other side of the room merely to press the snooze button and stumble back onto the inviting blue sheets.

The alarm rang again, correction- Beeped again.

I slowly got up, stomping my feet in utter aggravation. I was in no rush to go to school but I had no choice. I could just see this particular scene being in some teen comedy. I could imagine it already; I was just as insignificant as any other 14 year old teenager out there. It was all so cliché, so expected from your average American teenager.

I finally gave up at the repeating and may I add annoying line of BEEEEEEEPS.

If only my mother had been here to wake me up.

I stared at the ceiling for a while, trying to configure the cracks into shapes. Well this was definitely a waste of time. I glanced at my alarm clock one more time, 7:30. No doubt about it, I was going to be late. So why not go? I grinned at the thought, then grinned again at the fact I grinned at my own thought. It suddenly seemed like I was talking to myself. Am I crazy? I looked in the mirror,

“Yup, I'm definitely crazy”

“Your average psychopath” I added…to myself.

I gently touched my incredibly tangled hair and I headed downstairs only to discover the same thing. My breakfast was on the table with a little note next to the tray that was contained an omelet, a croissant, a orange, a glass of milk and a bowl of cereal. I plopped myself down on the couch and grabbed the remote only to discover the only things that were on were toddler shows, ”educational “programming and occasional sham woo hoo infomercials. SHAMWOOHOO! IT’S A TOWEL, IT’S A SPONGE! , IT’S A PAPER TOWEL!!!!

I grabbed the note, glanced at it and threw it on the table. It had the usual line. “Have a good day”, how creative was she? She could of at least said make good choices, or have fun, or something a regular mom would say, but that was all it said in a simple, neat, fine print with even a capitalized “G” and a period at the end.

It was 1:45 as I woke up from my incredibly long and dreamless nap. I realized my phone was vibrating making my dresser rattle. I picked it up and wondered who would be calling during school hours. It was Owen, of course. I laughed at my recent curiosity.

“Hello Owen” attempting my best to sound sick

“Don’t hello Owen me!” he mocked my tone of voice.

I paused for a while trying to make sense of what he said.

“Let me guess, you’re sick….again.”

“Um. No. I… have a holiday today that’s really crucial to my religion” I replied ,trying to sound as serious as possible.

“Last time I checked you weren’t sure what religion you were” he said matter-a-factly.

I smiled and let out a short laugh.

“Where are you calling from anyway?” I added in my regular voice dropping the sick act.

“Lunch, and the periods almost over”

“Okay fine. Go.”

“Whatever, ill drop in later”

“kay”

I hung up the phone and wished I had went to school, I spent the rest of the time sitting on the couch waiting for Owen like the pathetic person I am.

It finally reached 3 and Owen lightly knocked my door. I proceeded to get and it and was unreservedly surprised when I discovered he had cut his hair. The long blonde shoulder length silky straight hair was now cut into a chin length side bang sorta thing.

I lifted by eyebrows.

“I'm impressed”

He rolls his eyes and ran his hand through is thin hair.

“Hello Candice”

“Yah, whatever” I said as if I was not amused. Owen was…Different. His personality out ruled his looks. He was your typical American, blonde with sea blue eyes , nothing unique. His personality on the other hand was what caused us to be best friends in the first place. He thought deeper about things, looked at the simplest situation from a million deferent perspectives. He was incredibly smart but only when he wanted to be. At other times, he amazes me at how dumb he can seem.

He grabbed the Wii, and headed toward the fridge. My home was his home, his home was supposedly my home too but it never intrigued me to go to his house, let alone make myself at home. I heard him open a can of coke and closed the fridge. He saw me struggling to find out how to work the wii and came over with his “I know what to do” look. I grinned and backed away. This was one of the times where I underestimated him, but he proved me wrong when he got it working 5 seconds later.

We spent a while playing tennis and betting who would get a better score each time. I was just about to lose again when he suddenly paused.

“Hey Candice, can I ask you something?”

I glanced at him wanting to laugh at his sudden seriousness but stopped myself enough to nod.

“Do you think I'm…peculiar?”

“ I lifted my eyebrow, you mean as in weird?”I corrected him.

“Yah” he said as he rolled his eyes

“Of course you are”

He seemed upset and took a small sigh and continued playing.

“Are you seriously not taking that as a compliment?” I asked.

He grinned and glanced at the Rolex I had gotten him for his birthday last year.

“Damn, I got to go.”

“Homework” he added as he grabbed his bag.

“You could do it here, you could show me what we had today too”

He gulped.

“No, I'm going to go..my uh…my mom wants me to..help with stuff”

I tried not to show curiosity at his unusual mysteriousness.

“Bye, are you going to come over later?” I said calmly showing no sign of emotion.

He paused for a second as if he was thinking about something.

“Are you?” I repeated slightly louder.

“Huh? Oh yah sure” he said as if I brought him out of some daze he was in. I regretted doing that, Owen was so easy to read sometimes but at others, he was so complex and so deep in thought it was impossible to have the slightest idea of what was going through his mind.

He never came.

I picked up the phone and dialed his number, no answer. I finally gave up and stumbled upstairs to grab my laptop. I hated living like this.

- *-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-

I heard the steps get gradually louder as the door slowly opened revealing a slit of light.

“Candy?” My mother who had arrived at 1:34 exactly, said in a faint whisper.

I pretended not to hear since I was too tired to get up and have the usual greeting.

“Candice!” she shouted.

I realized I had no choice and replied.

“WHAT?” I said as rude as possible.

“I got a call from school today… You weren’t there?”

“I was sick” I obviously lied.

I heard her sigh and slam the door.

I was in no mood for confrontation and I could tell neither was she.

- *-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-

CHAPTER 2

The plastic tasting pizza that was served daily at our school actually sounded appetizing. I was as hungry as ever and didn’t even realize it. I sat away from our usual table. Owen had ditched me, and he didn’t even call.

It took him a while to realize where I was sitting but came and joined me. I kept on looking at my food and entirely ignored him.

Owen stared at me amused by how much I was suddenly capable of eating.

“Candy, you have tons of food at home yet you forget to eat it?” he asked.

I ignored the comment and continued stuffing my face with everything I could get my hands on.

“Candy, are you ok?”

“Don’t call me candy” I mumbled as I picked up another slice.

“Fine, Candace,” he said as grabbed his bag angrily and went.

The bell finally rang and I stumbled into math, integrated algebra, to be exact. The teacher fiddled with her ring as she walked around waiting for the class to be quite. Ms. Morgan was an unbelievably nice teacher. Her blonde hair was in a messy bun held together by two pencils with loose strands escaping everywhere. She had chocolate brown big eyes, and a pretty round face. Everybody slowly realized she was watching everyone socializing -that is except for me.

Our school is peculiar as Owen said. They make you have the same people in every class. I wished it was what I read in books and saw in movies, that way I’d be able to ignore Owen better. They say it’s because the students learn based on their academic skills, I say, it makes things less hard for them….

Everybody finally shut up.

“Oki doki, well, good morning”

Silence.

She stood with one arm on her hip sucking her teeth waiting for us to reply, she finally gave up and continued with the never ending algebra.

ok ok, i know the guys blonde and probably super cute but a girl can dream cant she??

so whadya think?

Long time no...write.

Yellow

Thats how my aunts husband says hello when he answers the phone.

"Yellow"

"...green?"

Its been hectic these past...12? days. Lately, I have been even more obsessed with twilight when I saw New Moon with natalie. When I came back to school the next day, I gotta admit I was a little paranoid.

"TEAM EDWARD!!!! YOU GET THAT???? GOOD, BECAUSE IF YOU DIDNT I WOULD HAVE HURTTTT YOU!!!!!"

"Team edward yah ok, ok, i get it"

Today was a pretty interesting day...

One- We had a test in math when I realize I had gotten a 75. I knew I could not have gotten a 75 so I checked over my answers and was absolutely certain two of them were correct. At first I approached her, casually, and talked about what was the best measure of central tendency. She always tells us the mean is always the best IF there is no outlier and I quoted her. So, shes like "Fine, Ill change it" and I got an 80. Then I realized that yet ANOTHER question I had gotten wrong was right. It was to name the independent and dependent variable, and I was absolutely positive it was A when she on the other hand didn't. I spent almost 15 minutes trying to convince her why it is the right answer because it IS, and she finally understood that in the test ITSELF, it gave you the answer. So, the people who got A like I did came praising me and kissing the ground I walked on (haha, sureeee) and the people who got C and got it right before now hate me.

Tw0- I got a new phone, and I might sound unexcited since Im not using capitals but i already have been hyper enough throughout this post. oh what the hay, I GOT A NEW PHONE!!! YAYAYAYAYAYAY.... You really dont care, do you? well, its a motorola cliq or whatever and its a nice touch screen with a full keyboard and tons of free apps. It also has pretty good photo and video quality so I like it better then the G1. I already downloaded 6 twilight backgrounds and a ringtone with edward voice saying "I only left to protect you" It makes me think he never met me so he can PROTECT ME. Yup, thats definitely the reason why he is not desperately clinging on to me, begging for my marriage... - sigh -

So anyway, I'm pretty happy I've went from an 75 to an 85 even though I definitely know I can do better.

See you later- My mom nagging on how I have to go to sleep earlier due to the over sleeping incident today, eh, I think she read what I wrote about that nagging thing.

Darn, she read that too. This font is small enough, if you see this leave a comment with the word "EDWARD" and you will win...absolutely nothing. Well goodnight

<3 class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_21">don't let the bed- Yeah I'm not gonna say that anymore, I have gotten anonymous calls claiming I make them stay up all night wondering if there ARE bed bugs, just kidding...or am i?

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

Im thankful for my brother (good for blaming stuff on), My family including my mom (I dont consider my brother FAMILY, I don't think you can be family with someone other then your species), My amazing friends, Food (hehe), My home, nature, You guys, and all the things Im blessed with.

Its thanksgiving, and my mom is busy getting the turkey ready. Its amazing how much she is into this, we all look like dorks wearing our homemade turkey hats.

Maybe I should take it off.

Anyway, she got the turkey at 7 am in the morning since yesterday everything was closed. At first it looked all pink and nasty. Kinda made me want to become vegetarian knowing that turkey was once walking around, minding it own business, when CHOP, its dead.

Poor little pink, nasty, bloody turkey. That doesn't sound too appetizing.

Did I just ruin your thanksgiving?

Ugh, I tend to do that a lot.

Yesterday, we went to Manhattan to walk around staring at the lights, get some stuff for dufus, and and stare at all the pretty lights some more. We went to Macys and my mom got make-up. We spent the whole day there and I was so incredibly tired when we came back, good thing its not too far from where I live. One thing that I found truly annoying was the fact that dufus complained the whole way through.

"Im hungry"

"Im tired"

"I need to go to the bathroom"

"I really need to go to the bathroom"

"I really REALLY need to go to the bathroom"

And when we finally get to the closest McDonald's after stressing our brains out that he's gonna pee in his pants, he suddenly changes his mind and doesn't wanna use the bathroom anymore, plus he barely touches his food. Idiot.

We got home at about 12. Dufus slept in the car so my mom had to carry him upstairs, but guess what happens? my neighbors drunk. He is so funny when He is drunk.

He's like

"Ill carry him"

But he can barely carry himself so my moms all scared and like "no no no no"

Then he carries all our bags upstairs including my moms friends baby carriage (she tagged along). He should be drunk more often, he's rather nice when he is. Then he looks at my moms friends baby and he just stands there and starts to tear

"She is so beautiful" he says, his voice cracking. Then he just bursts out crying...weird.

Well, Ill keep you guys updated on what happens later on. Im going to get ready for the guests (my moms friends).

Peace out DAWGS (...? dont ask)

Happy thanksgiving! What are you thankful for?

Shopping- short update- gotta go picking up brother.

Hello.

Unexpected shopping spree!

Well, to be honest, I planned on going and getting a cardigan. One cardigan. Period. No more. No less.

But it turned into this huge shopping spree, I love those. I got like 3 cardigans, boots, a bunch of sweaters, jeans, and a whole bunch of jewelry and hair stuff. It was crazy, and to finish it off we got manicures.

I am so incredibly tired even though its only 5:30. I just got done with homework since we got out of the house at like 11 am.

Ugh, my moms glaring at me standing by the door. She has that "Is the computer more important then me?" look that makes me feel guilty. We're supposed to pick up my brother so longer post later :).

Been Busyy

Wow so much homework, so many tests, and so much stuff to worry about.
So guess what? Vintage is so in right now, so i went and got my self this little cute vintage sweater from century 21, amazingly cute. I put together this little video of vintage inspired (boutique) clothing which is from the new forever 21 line.

Do you like any of the pieces? I only did a few, so you can check out the rest forever21.com. I also found almost the exact same cardigan at mandee(.com).

Well, enough with all that, it feels like I'm advertising, They should pay me. They really should.

hmm, so what happened the past few days I have not posted?

NOTHING

Hello??? thats why I have not posted... The word "nothing" would have came up a lot if I did post.

I am really excited about tomorrow since I think me and Natalie are going to watch New Moon!!!!! Yes, I am one of those overly obsessed twilight lovers. I am so not going to deny it, I love TWILIGHT!! DO YOU HAVE A PROBLEM WITH THAT???

I didn't think so.

Today was very average, at dance or drama or whatever the hell it is we had to do this dance test thing. Thats one thing I never quite understood. The actual class is called "Drama" which is why I was excited about it in the first place but the only things we seem to do is dance. Don't get me wrong, I have nothing against dancing or something like that, its just that id rather act or do something that actually has to do with drama once in a while.

I came home, plumped myself down and grabbed my computer. No, I did not do any homework. Friday is my free day, saturdays when I get done with all that homework jazz, and then sunday always sucks for some reason. I don't know, I just do not like sundays.

and do NOT get me started on mondays or tuesdays or Wednesdays or thursdays for that matter.

Goodness, I don't even like fridays since we have triple math, Now isn't that just dandy?

...-silence-

To be honest I do not have anything to really talk about so...um..yah.. I'll just get going.

Byee

Love ya <3

yayy

I dont want you to think Im a freak posting three times a day with nothing to do except write and stare for comments....I DONT!! pshhhhhh

But my mom has decided not to go for parent teacher conference because she is incredibly tired.

THANK U GODDDD

Just thought Id share that with you :)

My favorite song from taylor swift...for now.

ooooo

And how are you all doing today? I am doing fine, THANK U FOR ASKING. Just joking (or am I?) 

Unusual day for me since it was a half day with half the time and half the work with half the homework ^-^ YAY, whats not so yay is the fact that today is parent teacher conference which as usual I dread. My mom is at work but when she gets back, we are both going to school with dufus over here (My brother).

I had to pick up my brother so I dragged my self home then dragged myself back to his school at 1:45. 

Today was pretty good except the fact I made a complete idiot out of myself which I tend to do ALOT. So we were planning this suprise happy birthday thing for Kamila, so we went to the office, gave a birthday shout out and I had gotten two helium balloons and a card. I had planned this : As soon as they said "Happy Birthday Kamila" I would go get the balloons and hug her. Sounds too perfect? I thought so too. I, being the klutz that I am, took an hour opening the bag and everybody was staring since it was dead silent other then the loud speaker. When I finally got the bag open, the balloons got out some how and floated in the middle of the room. So much for a surprise, well I still gave it to her on cue so it was cute. 

The balloons were not so cute, since my mother got them.

She ussually has good taste, but she got a high school musical ballon. It was 10 so I could not argue, plus she had gotten them, so I was pretty happy anyway.

But its good that she got the one with Zac Efron on it, I bet kamila is staring at his complexion right now.

Wow

Everything passed by so quickly, It WAS half a day. Goodness, I am really not in that writing mood which rarely happens, therefore I might post later, sorry I am incredibly lazy sometimes, sorry.

Peace

LOVE YAA :)

<3

REPORT CARDS

HI, I am in an awfull mood since as many of you know its report card day, I am pretty happy on what I got for most subjects 
                I got a 90 in L.A and an 85 on the rest..
What I need to work harder at is math, this year I hate math, last year I got 95-96. I WILL STUDY ALL DAY AND NIGHT IF I HAVE TOO!!!!
                    This years grades are the ones the high schools see plus I am in AP or SP "advanced placement" So I have to get better grades then the people in regular classes and I am sure thats not the case here.


Poem-
Report Card Day
The day is finally here
I have been dreading its arrival
Im full of apprehension and fear
Thank god these are not the finals
The teacher fiddles with her ring as she passes out the papers
I definitely need good grades if Im going to become an actor
The bell rings and I  stumble out the door
I look at my grades
These are even worse then before
Im shaking in the middle of the street
I hear someone shouting, COME ON MOVE YOUR FEET!!
My face is grey, I finally get home 
I wonder if I should turn around and just stay and roam
I finally get the courage and go inside
Did you get your report card? my mom asked
I gulp. no, i lied,


Dont worry I did not lie, but my mom acted calmer then usuall. First she was like, MATH IS THE MOST IMPORTANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Then shes like, just study harder and all the usual jinglemabop. I do not get why parents always think math is the most important.


Well, I will study harder, I will work my butt off this semester. I am not getting caught up into any your usual middle school drama, I will focus on grades and grades alone. Great, i sound like a freak 
musttt. gettt. HUNDREDS!!!.


So from today I will finish my homework and study before I use the computer or do anything else --yup, homework is done---


One this I found interesting is that before we actually got report cards me victoria, kamilla, and Andra aka Rozy prayed which was nice.


Well I might post later today, but right now Im going to staples to get ink, mine ran out,


PEACE 

Chocolate Blob

heyz, yes I just put a z in front of hey. I discovered that z at the end of every word makes it more...fun. oops, i meant funz! see what I mean? Whatever, dont mind me Im sleepy and banging my head with the integrated algerba book. I guess you could say trying to knock some of it in there. I have tons of homework to do yet im still posting, now thats just incredible. Thats how much I love you guys! 

I Truly do love you

Anyway, My moms out getting a mirror. I know that does not sound too...normal. Our old  mirror broke (gasp, maybe thats why I got a paper cut yesterday), so yah. Im tryng to finish my homework which consists or * 10 pages of math *lesson summary for science *weekly recap *dej (reading log thing) *Lab *E.L.A short respoce for this book (the giver) and study for math and other quizzes.

Don't you feel bad for me? 

Yesterday was pretty average but I stayed up until like 2 am staring at the computer screen making blue boxes by dragging the mouse. I actually found that amusing for a while, hard to believe, huh? I fell asleep right there and then and I woke up with my laptop still plumped on my belly with finger still pressed on the button...weird. So since I slept late, I woke up at like 11 am and my mom had breakfast on the table which I found incredibly sweet since she hates me over sleeping on sundays. So basically I stuffed my face with waffles and chocolate syrup and all that unhealthy stuff you just love. She kinda just stared and pointed to the fruit salad but you could see she knew that was just plain useless. 

My brother, the ultimate idiot took the chocolate syrup and drew a blob on the wall. When my mom confronted him and started getting all red and mad, he simply shrugged and said it was spongebob. The darn things not even a square. Well, later on I found out i underestimated him because in that blob was a square looking shape with eyes and a mouth he drew with his finger. My mom finally managed to get it off the wall since it was in the bathroom and on the tiles. At least the bathroom smells chocolaty now.

Well, Im going to go finish that homework now.

-Dounia

mmm...chocolate.

I almost died!!!!!!- Holy Jinglemabop.

I have not been able to go on the internet for 2 whole days! Holy Jinglemabop. There were limited times when I could quickly update my facebook status and check for notifications but nothing else. So anyway, enough of all that jinglemabop. Today was a pretty average day. Math was ok, but the highlight was me not printing out my essay. My printer ran out of ink so I figured i will just print it out in the library the next day. I get to the library and the librarian tells me the printers "not working properly", cant you make it "work properly?" huh??? CANT YOU????????????????????/

Well, for Friday the 13th it wasn't that bad, but the days till not over so this might be a death note, because what if I die? My bedroom goes to the old teddy bear under my bed but under no circumstances can my brother take it.

Mr. Hayden substituted for drama which was absolutely awesome. We actually did drama! We had like an acting competition thing. It was amazing.

If he hadn't been there we would have had a test, so thank god he was.

Math was pretty good since all we did for the 3 periods was take a test, and do some more 9th grade integrated algebra.

We also did a few things in s.s so basically the only real subjects we had are social studies and math.

I am going to make this post short because its 11 and I am incredibly tired. Sorry for being lazy on you guys (my now 17 followers, including myself :( so 16)

Well goodnight, sweet dreams, and don't let the bed bugs bite! (If you have bed bugs you seriously need an exterminator) Darn, did I just ruin your sleep? well sorry. Jinglmabop.

Untitled (ran out of tittles)

hello world, how are you doing.

Today was a pretty Ok day but the highlight was definitely michel and Lucas's rap/songs. They were incredibly awesome but informational at the same time.

I was not able to sing my song...again because unfortunetly ms.madden put the wrong thing on her flash drive and for some reason, she cant find it on her email either.

To top it all off as im heading out the class I knock down the mini ladder and she says

Dounia, you are not having a good day today.

Obviously referring to the ladder, the song and the lab i did not do. Dont blame me, in AP, its almost impossible to keep track of everything.

PLANNERS ARE LIKE EVERYTHING TO THOSE PEOPLE.

Even though I have my own, I still forget to write every single thing down and I hate how they tell us something we have to do once and expect us to completely understand it, and if you were in the bathroom or your attention was not completely on her for a second she never says it again.

I need to get organized. If Im going to get into a high school with a good acting program, I better keep my grades up or I will literally kill myself. Do you hear me world??? I am a suicidal person. Bet you didn't know that about me, huh?

So, right now im just surfing the net since tomorrow is no school, finally a break. Its amazing what one day off school can do for you.

Today we had that pacer test in P.E. Most people ran 30 or 40. Anne won for the girls with 40 and lucas for the boys with 6o something. That dude is amazing but then again he is really tall with long legs so I totally think that helped.

As usual me and Luljetta were acting like crazy after school with my camera. We took like billions of pictures, well she mostly took pictures of me... but who cares.

So, now, I am staring at the ceiling with a knife in my hand waiting for myself to commit suicide. ha!

Wait, suicide is no laughing matter.

ha!

I actually sounded serious, thats unlike me.

My brother, being the idiot that he is just spilled apple juice all over the couch and my moms having a heart attack

"Hatem! I just washed the couch covers!"

Its actually quite funny.

So, I added a new background and banner, you like it? I designed the banner courtesy of photoshop, 6.0 elements which I am in love with and want to marry.

The background is courtesy of the cutest blog on the block or something like that.. So as I said I am saving up for an iphone, to make up for my evil stepfather stealing my G1.

Plus I will feel proud knowing thats my hard earned money right there, and that nobody is going to take it away from me unlike that other jinglemabop.

Goodness, I have about 10 pokes from people I do not now. Oh wait, there is one from kassandra.

Well, Ill talk to you later world (or my 15 followers). Remember to leave a comment if you read this! :)

Comments make me happpy ^_^

...Im ashamed of myself

Do you guys hate me? You hate me right? No, no, you hate me. Stop with all the hate people, your lowering my self esteem. Oh gosh, I have not updated this blog in like, how many months? This is what I dread about myself, I cannot finish anything that i have started. I never stick to anything including, novels I try to write, diets i try to stick to and...blogs.

So lets pretend I never went through that long period of time without updating and lets continue from where we left off.

Today was a...Ok day. We had to do science projects so i brought in my laptop which slowly numbed my shoulder as i was carrying it from and to school.

Why are the i's not capitalized? well, dont mind that and pretend they are.

Im terrified of report cards since i have probably failed math for SP, failing is an 80. I probably got lower then an 80. I get that we have to think algebraically and all that jinglemabops but Im getting bad grades for absolutely stupid things.

"You for got to put a tittle for the graph"

I know i got an 85 in social studies which is not bad in my case, Im pretty sure im getting an awesome grade for spanish, probably gonna pass latin, science...eh, im good, P.E, cant run or do a push up for my life, and L.A Im getting a good grade in. I got good grades on all my essays and she particularly writes "Well done!" so im most happy about that.

My mom just put dinner on the table which consists of these weird spinach gourmet things, they actually taste pretty good, who knew? My moms a chef by the way, so its absolutely normal for her to serve up some weird jinglemabop. Facebook has been my new addiction so I go on that every once in a while to check.

Even though I truly do like facebook, i never understood the whole "Poke" concept. I think it means "Im thinking of you", or theirs the occasional "I declare a poke war!".

Im saving up for an iphone, since my ex-stepfather took my G1 which was my most favorite thing. So far i have 25 bucks which is not bad since I have been saving for 2 days. The 20 was from my allowance and the 5 was what was left from last weeks allowance. Even though i wont have enough untill the middle of the year, at least Ill have an nice phone.

C ya- Dounia

When life gives you lemons, make orange juice and let the world wonder how you did it.

Read the post under this!...Preety Please

Friends are people that know everything about you and still like you

FRIEDN:Lend you their umbrella
BEST FRIEND:Take yours and say 'RUN MORON RUN!'

FRIEND: Never ask for anything to eat or drink.
BEST FRIEND:Helps themselves and are the reason why you have no food.

FRIEND:Call your parents by Mr. and Mrs. and Grandpa, by Grandpa.
BEST FRIEND:Call your parents DAD and MOM and Grandpa, GRAMPS!

FRIEND:Would bail you out of jail.
BEST FRIEND:Would be sitting next to you saying "THAT WAS FRICKING AWSOME!

WE ARE SO DOING THAT AGAIN NEXT WEEKEND!"

FRIEND:Have never seen you cry.
BEST FRIEND:Won’t tell everyone else you cried...just laugh about it with you in private when you’re not down anymore.

FRIEND:Asks you to write down your number.
BEST FRIENDS:Has you on speed dial.

FRIENDS: Borrows your stuff for a few days then gives it back.
BEST FRIEND:Loses your stuff and tells you, "My bad...here's a tissue."

FRIEND:Only know a few things about you.
BEST FRIEND:Could write a very embarrassing biography on your life story...

FRIEND:Will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing.
BEST FRIEND:Will kick the whole crowds butt that left you

FRIEND:Would knock on your front door.
BEST FRIEND:Walk right in and say "I'M HOME."

FRIEND:You have to tell them not to tell anyone.
BEST FRIEND:Already knows not to tell.

FRIEND:Are only through Middle School/high school/college.
BEST FRIEND:Are for life.

FRIEND:Will comfort you when the guy rejects you
BEST FRIEND:Will go up to him and say 'its because your gay isn't it?'

FRIEND: Will help me find my way when I'm lost

BEST FRIEND: Will be the one messing with my compass, stealing my map and giving me bad directions

FRIEND: Will help me learn to drive

BEST FRIEND: Will help me roll the car into the lake so I can collect insurance

FRIEND: Will watch my pets when I go away

BEST FRIEND: Won't let me go away

FRIEND: Will help me up when I fall down

BEST FRIEND: Will point and laugh because she tripped me

FRIEND: Will bail me out of jail

BEST FRIEND: Will be sitting beside me saying "Dang, we screwed up"

FRIEND: Will go to a concert with me

BEST FRIEND: Will kidnap the band with me

FRIEND: Calls my parents "Mr." or "Mrs."

BEST FRIEND: Calls my parents "Mom" or "Dad"

FRIEND: Asks me for my number

BEST FRIENDS: Asks me for her number

FRIEND: Hides me from the cops

BEST FRIEND: is probably the reason they are after me in the first place

FRIENDS: lets me make an idiot of myself in public

BEST FRIEND: Is up there with me making an idiot out of herself too.

FRIENDS: Fade

BEST FRIEND: Are 4 Ever

Now Isn't that just cute?

"Ever notice that STUDYING is the combination of the words STUDENT and DYING?"

____Going a bit toward the sad side_____

My name is Sarah

I am but three,

My eyes are swollen

I cannot see,

I must be stupid

I must be bad,

What else could have made

My daddy so mad?

I wish I were better

I wish I weren't ugly,

Then maybe my mommy

Would still want to hug me.

I can't speak at all

I can't do a wrong

Or else I'm locked up

All the day long

When I awake I'm all alone

The house is dark

My folks aren't home.

When my mommy does come

I'll try and be nice,

So maybe I'll get just

One whipping tonight

Don't make a sound!

I just heard a car

My daddy is back

From Charlie's Bar.

I hear him curse

My name he calls

I press myself

Against the wall.

I try and hide

From his evil eyes

I'm so afraid now

I'm sradishing to cry.

He finds me weeping

He shouts ugly words,

He says its my fault

That he suffers at work.

He slaps me and hits me

And yells at me more,

I finally get free

And I run for the door.

He's already locked it

And I sradish to bawl,

He takes me and throws me

Against the hard wall.

I fall to the floor

With my bones nearly broken,

And my daddy continues

With more bad words spoken.

"I'm sorry!", I scream

But its now much too late

His face has been twisted

Into unimaginable hate.

The hurt and the pain

Again and again

Oh please God, have mercy!

Oh please let it end!

And he finally stops

And heads for the door,

While I lay there motionless

Sprawled on the floor.

My name is Sarah

And I am but three,

Tonight my daddy,

Murdered me.

I cried.

Month one

Mommy
I am only 8 inches long
but I have all my organs.
I love the sound of your voice.
Every time I hear it
I wave my arms and legs.
The sound of your heart beat
is my favorite lullaby.

Month Two

Mommy
today I learned how to suck my thumb.
If you could see me
you could definitely tell that I am a baby.
I'm not big enough to survive outside my home though.
It is so nice and warm in here

Month Three

You know what Mommy
I'm a boy!
I hope that makes you happy.
I always want you to be happy.
I don't like it when you cry.
You sound so sad.
It makes me sad too
and I cry with you even though
you can't hear me.

Month Four

Mommy
my hair is starting to grow.
It is very short and fine
but I will have a lot of it.
I spend a lot of my time exercising.
I can turn my head and curl my fingers and toes
and stretch my arms and legs.
I am becoming quite good at it too.

Month Five

You went to the doctor today.
Mommy, he lied to you.
He said that I'm not a baby.
I am a baby Mommy, your baby.
I think and feel.
Mommy, what's abortion?

Month Six

I can hear that doctor again.
I don't like him.
He seems cold and heartless.
Something is intruding my home.
The doctor called it a needle.
Mommy what is it? It burns!
Please make him stop!
I can't get away from it!
Mommy! HELP me!

Month Seven

Mommy
I am okay.
I am in Heavens's arms.
He is holding me.
He told me about abortion.
Why didn't you want me Mommy?

Every Abortion Is Just

One more heart that was stopped.
Two more eyes that will never see.
Two more hands that will never touch.
Two more legs that will never run.
One more mouth that will never speak.

Try Not To Cry:

Mommy...Johnny brought a gun to school,

He told his friends that it was cool,

And when he pulled the trigger back,

It shot with a great, huge crack.

Mommy, I was a good girl, I did what I was told,

I went to school, I got straight A's, I even got the gold!

When I went to school that day,

I never said good-bye.

I'm sorry that I had to go, But Mommy, please don't cry.

When Johnny shot the gun, he hit me and another,

And all because Johnny, got the gun from his brother.

Mommy, please tell Daddy; That I love him very much,

And please tell Zack; my boyfriend; That it wasn't just a crush.

And tell my little sister; That she is the only one now,

And tell my dear sweet grandmother; I'll be waiting for her now

And tell my wonderful friends; That they always were the best

Mommy, I'm not the first, I'm no better than the rest

Mommy, tell my teachers; I won't show up for class,

And never to forget this, And please don't let this pass

Mommy, why'd it have to be me? No one, though. deserves this.

But mommy, it's not fair, I left without a kiss.

And Mommy tell the doctors; I know that they really did try

I think I even saw one doctor, trying not to cry.

Mommy, I'm slowly dying, with a bullet in my chest,

But Mommy please remember, I'm in heaven with the rest

When I heard that great, big crack, I ran as fast as I could

please listen to me if you would,

I wanted to go to college, I wanted to try things that were new

I guess I'm not going with Daddy, On that trip to the new zoo

I wanted to get married, I wanted to have a kid,

I wanted to be an actress, I really wanted to live.

But Mommy I must go now, The time is getting late,

Mommy, tell my Zack, I'm sorry to cancel the date.

I love you Mommy, I always have, I know you know its true

And Mommy all I need to say is, "Mommy, I love you"

In Memory of The Columbine & Virginia Tech Students Who Were Lost

:'(

Comment if you have a heart <3<3>

Hey, I was just about to rant on how I couldn't copy and paste but when I switched to safari, I could! Which brings me to the question...

MAC OR PC??

I have to say I have and probably always will be a PC.

Hi my name is dounia, Im 12 years old and Im a PC.

Its not that I dont like mac, its just that Im so used to Pc I cant imagine myself with another computer. I used a mac once, and felt unfaithful, and as if I was cheating on my PC :'(

(You know Im just joking....right?)

I just find them being too expensive in my case. My new laptop is just fine. Did I mention I had gotten a new laptop? Well, if i didn't then, i just did and If I did, then, well, never mind.

I just realized I never use proper grammar or spelling on this thing.

You have a problem with that??

Well, if you do then check this out...

If you can read this message, you are blessed because over two million people in the world cannot read at all:

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So, the hell with spelling! (Sorry to all the english teachers out there and grammar freaks)

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Anyway, we were in future city where you have to build a city in Sim City 4 Deluxe and Victoria (a human) says that she researched what a good city has to have and she says it needs to have a Walmart and 4 K.F.C.'s. My response?

"...Is there a button for that?"

So, here are 15 ways to get kicked out of Walmart... Comment if you have done any of these things, think its funny, will attempt to do any of these things and or if you have hair... In other words

LEAVE A COMMENT!! ( Or die...Im just joking!..Or am I??)

The truth is... Comments make me happy :-)

15 ways to get kicked out of WalMart!

1. Wander through the store dressed in all black with a fake walkie-talkie humming the Mission Impossible theme. When someone asks you what you're doing, scream "LOOK OUT!" and push them behind a shelf.

2. Pass out bananas to random people snicker loudly after they take one.

3. Buy 350 packets of tuna and scream "THIS CAN'T BE RIGHT! YOU HAVE TO PUT SOME BACK!" once the cashier tells you the price.

4. Walk around looking confused in the CD section and ask someone where you can find "musical devices."

5. When the announcer-thing comes on throw yourself on the floor and scream "THE VOICES! THEY'RE BACK!"

6. Start a fishstick fight!

7. Walk up to random people and give them giant bear hugs. Then scream "I MISSED YOU MAN!"

8. (This requires a friend) Jump in a cart and have a friend push you around screaming "THE BRITISH ARE COMING!"

9. Walk up to an employee and murmur "Code red in aisle 3" and see what they do.

10. Slip a a pink br@ into a really macho-looking man's cart. (Just make sure there are no girls with him.)

11. Attempt to fly off a high shelf!

12. Throw confetti on random people walking into the store.

13. Whisper "I know your secret" to people in the checkout line.

14. Stand inside the freezer in the frozen food section.

15. Walk up to employees and whisper "I saw dead people... They want me to take you away... to aisle 8...

Am I a dork, or aren't I??

Come to my dorky side... we have cookies

(Its actually "Come to my dark side...we have cookies" but I am not that dark unless you get on my nerves.)

CUTE but PsYcHo

things even out

Read these funny and witty quotes! ENJOY Witty?? I do not know, I got out of a site.

A babysitter is a teenager acting like an adult while the adults are out acting like teenagers.
-- Author Unknown

A bargain is something you don't need at a price you can't resist.
-- Franklin P. Jones

A man's go to do what a man's got to do. A woman must do what he can't.
-- Rhonda Hansome

Accomplishing the impossible means only that the boss will add it to your regular duties
-- Author Unknown

Adults are always asking kids what they want to be when they grow up because they are looking for ideas.
-- Paula Poundstone

Adults are just obsolete children.
-- Dr Seuss

Advertising is the art of convincing people to spend money they don't have on something they don't need.
-- Will Rogers

Age is just a number. It's totally irrelevant unless, of course, you happen to be a bottle of wine.
-- Joan Collins

Allow me to put the record straight. I am forty-six and have been for some years past.
-- Erica Jong

Always acknowledge a fault. This will throw those in authority off their guard and give you an opportunity to commit more.
-- Mark Twain

Always use tasteful words. You may have to eat them.
-- Author Unknown

An accountant is someone who solves a problem you didn't know you had in a way you don't understand.
-- Author Unknown

An adult is someone who has stopped growing at both ends and started growing in the middle.
-- Author Unknown

An advertising agency is 85 per cent confusion and 15 per cent commission.
-- Fred Allen

Believe nothing until it has been officially denied.
-- Author Unknown

Careful grooming may take twenty years off a woman's age, but you can't fool a flight of stairs.
-- Marlene Dietrich

Dressing a baby is like putting an octopus into a string bag, making sure none of the arms hang out.
-- Chris Evans

Go for younger men. You might as well - they never mature anyway.
-- Author Unknown

I always wondered why babies spend so much time sucking their thumbs. Then I tasted baby food.
-- Robert Orben

I got in an argument with a girlfriend inside of a tent. That's a bad place for an argument, because then I tried to walk out and had to slam the flap. How are you supposed to express your anger in this situation? Zip it up real quick?
-- Mitch Hedberg

I had arrived at the airport one hour early so that, in accordance with airline procedures, I could stand around.

If we can't alter the tide of events, at least we can be nearby with towels to mop up.
-- Peter David, Q-in-Law

If you can't convince them, confuse them.
-- Harry S. Truman

If you see a snake, just kill it - don't appoint a committee on snakes.
-- H. Ross Perot

It has been said that a pretty face is a passport. But it's not, it's a visa, and it runs out fast.
-- Julie Burchill

I've been doing a lot of abstract painting lately. Extremely abstract. No brush, no paint, no canvas, I just think about it.
-- Steven Wright

Men like to barbecue. Men will cook if danger is involved.
-- Rita Rudner

My grandfather likes to give me advice, but he's a little forgetful. One day, he took me aside and left me there.
-- Steven Wright

My idea of an agreeable person is a person who agrees with me.
-- Benjamin Disraeli

My wife was too beautiful for words - but not for arguments.
-- John Barrymore

Never go to bed mad. Stay up and fight.
-- Phyllis Diller

Once a woman has forgiven her man, she must not reheat his sins for breakfast.
-- Marlene Dietrich

Simply because nobody disagrees with you doesn't mean you're brilliant - maybe you're the boss.

Stand firm in your refusal to remain conscious during algebra. In real life, I assure you, there is no such thing as algebra.
-- Fran Lebowitz

That doesn't mean that you should just sit back and just let accidents happen to you. No, you have to go out and cause them yourself. That way you're in control of the situation.
-- P.J. O'Rourke

The greener grass on the other side is probably artificial turf.
-- Author Unknown

The only time a bachelor's bed is made is when it's in the factory.
-- P.J. O'Rourke

The secret of staying young is to live honestly, eat slowly, and lie about your age.
-- Lucille Ball

The very first law in advertising is to avoid the concrete promise and cultivate the delightfully vague.
-- Bill Cosby

Things hurt me now. My knees hurt, my back hurts. But your head still thinks it's twenty-three.
-- George Clooney

Whatever women do, they must do twice as well as men to be thought half as good. Luckily, this is not difficult.
-- Charlotte Whitton

When all else fails, read the instructions.
-- Author Unknown

You better live every day like it's your last day, because one day you're doing to be right.
-- Ray Charles

You know you've reached adulthood when 90 per cent of the time you spend in front of a computer is for real work. -- Author Unknown

Long post, huh? Well its about to get longer, this makes up for all the times I written those 5 sentence post.

Girl: Do I ever cross your mind?

Boy: No.

Girl: Do you like me?

Boy: No.

Girl: Do you want me?

Boy: No.

Girl: Would you cry if I left?

Boy: No.

Girl: Would you live for me?

Boy: No.

Girl: Would you do anything for me?

Boy:No.

Girl: Choose—me or your life?

Boy: My life

The girl runs away in shock and pain and boy runs after and says..

The reason you don't cross my mind is because you're always on my mind.

The reason why I don't like you is because I love you.

The reason why I don't want you is because I need you.

The reason I wouldn't cry if you left is becauseI would die if you left.

The reason I wouldn't live for you is because I would die for you.

The reason why I'm not willing to do anything for you is because I would do everything for you.

The reason I chose my life is becauseyou ARE my life.

A girl and guy were speeding over 100mph on a motorcycle

Girl:Slow down, I'm scared!

Guy:No, this is fun.

Girl:No, it's not. Please, I'm scared.

Guy:Then tell me you love me.

Girl:I love you, now slow down!

Guy:Now give me a big hug.

She gives him a big hug

Guy:Can you take off my helmet and put it on yourself, it's bothering me.

In the newspaper the next day, a motorcycle had crashed into a building because of break failure. Two people were on it and only one survived. The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized his break wasn't working but he didn't want the girl to know. Instead he had her hug him and tell him one last time that she loved him. Then he had her put on his helmet so that she could live.

AWWWW - Leave a comment

Some people are only alive because it is illegal to shoot them.

If two wrongs don't make a right...try three.

1 out of every 4 people are insane. Look at your 3 best friends. If it's not one of them...it's you.

We're best friends. You laugh, I laugh. You cry, I cry. You hurt, I hurt. You just jumped off a bridge...damn, I'm gonna miss your sorry __beep__.

Apparently, 1 in 5 people in the world are Chinese. And there are 5 people in my family. So it's one of them. It's either my mom or my dad. Or my older brother Collin. Or my other brother Ho-Chan-Chu...I think it's Collin.

A good friend will bail you out of jail, a great friend will be sitting next to you in your cell going, "We messed up, huh?"

Keep staring I might do a trick.

One day, I wondered why the frizbee was getting bigger, Then it hit me

Boys are like lava lamps, fun to watch but not too bright.

Boys are like slinkeys. Useless, but fun to watch fall down the stairs.

Its always in the last place you look...of course it is, why the hell would you keep looking after I found it?

It takes 42 muscles to frown, 28 to smile and only 4 to reach out and slap someone.

If life gives you lemons, make grape juice, and let the world wonder how you did it.

If life gives you lemons, throw them back, and yell I WANT EDWARD CULLEN

"Before you criticize someone, walk a mile in their shoes. That way you're a mile away from them and you have their shoes."

Parents spend the first part of our lives teaching us to walk and talk, and the rest of it telling us to sit down and shut up

Everything here is edible. I'm edible, but that my children is called cannibalism and is frowned upon in most societies.

Of course I'm talking to myself, who else can I trust?

One day your prince will come. Mine? Oh he took a wrong turn, got lost, and is too stubborn to ask for directions.

I'm not afraid of Death, what's it gonna do kill me?

Man: Where have you been all my life?

Woman: Hiding from you.

Man: Haven't I seen you someplace before?
Woman: Yes. That's why I don't go there anymore.

Man: Is this seat empty?
Woman: Yes, and this one will be if you sit down.

Man: Your place or mine?
Woman: Both. You go to yours, I'll go to mine.

Man: So, what do you do for a living?
Woman: I'm a female impersonator.

Man: Hey, baby, what's your sign?
Woman: Do not enter.

Man: I would go to the end of the world for you.
Woman: But would you stay there?

Man: If I could re-arrange the alphabet, I'd out "u" and "i" together.
Woman: Really, I'd put ... "IBCDEFGHJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXYZU" together.

Just because I Think this is too long I will finish it off later...